transitions, decisions, and the seeker in me...

I've been in the middle of (yet another) life transition.... This time around, a job change was afoot.  As always, with any big change, there was drama. There was chaos. There was that old familiar swirl... of fear- and of that feeling of life-taking-me-over...and me-just-hanging-on-for-dear-life.

The job change was unexpected. A corp. sale put my 25 year position on the chopping block. And since I happen to also be in the "middle" of my years on this lovely planet- the prospect of a new job at this point in my days was not a welcome idea for me--- AT ALL. What a whirl! What a whirl! This girl was spinning!

Now: The facts in my whirling head were as follows:  I have business skills to transition into another similar position (I have been a manager and have coached people in my business on all levels for 20+ years).  I definitely have the life skills to keep my busy family moving in all of their varied activities (I am a really fortunate single mom of three-who has great family support - thank goodness!).  I can and will keep this all together- NO PROBLEM.

I also knew that I had a calendar that was full of "to dos" to cross off everyday........and I became aware of something very disarming...... the activities and priorities on my OWN calendar- job or no job- No longer resembled the life I meant to lead.

Have you ever felt this way?

I asked myself: How did this happen?

I realized I had fallen asleep at the wheel in my own life and that I had been had been in survival mode- in my life in general- for a VERY looong time. My "shoulds" were running me. There was drama. There was chaos. And still- there was that old familiar swirl... of fear- and of that feeling of life-taking-me-over...and me-just-hanging-on-for-dear-life. (An ongoing theme for me :)

I knew something had to change. I knew that everything had to change.

I needed to find a path back to what matters.

My soul was calling me to think long and hard before choosing my next steps. I realized that I wanted and NEEDED to make an important SHIFT. I was scared to not do the SAFE route- but I now saw that this break in my career path was a gift for me- a chance to re-assess, re-address, and to re-connect to my center. BEFORE deciding what my next job focus would be.

So....I changed, from the inside out. I got to work. My spiritual side was calling out to me. I chose to listen. I tried many things and trained with great teachers. I re-committed to me. I reached out for mentors and practices that could help me release my "shoulds" and return to the heart and soul of what matters most TO ME. 

I now lovingly call this my Soul Work.

It was scary. It was invigorating. It brought me back awake.

After much time on this path, I realize that it is really so simple to re-connect to one's soul and the truth of what matters to us. It is not easy, but it is SIMPLE- AND SO FREEING!!! The structure and focus of our days is moldable- and our passions and creativity CAN and MUST be reflected in the way we live our days in order to light our inner fire. We CAN come home to what matters. We can wake up and take the reigns back on our all too busy days. And- very importantly- we CAN model heart aligned behaviors to our children.

Finding this work has affected me in every way and I am so grateful for the teachers and the other seekers who have affected and loved me along the way....Because of those loving hearts, I have found my life path and have trained and committed the rest of my life's work to giving these tools to others. The transition is real. The transformation of mind, body, heart and spirit is ongoing and I am in constant awe- and I need to share it. Today I celebrate the Seeker in me.  

And today and for always- I live to celebrate the seeker in YOU too! Best love- dear hearts! 

Sending You Love and Light xxoo  Laura Lynn